Current Life Goals

There's a lot of things I want in life. And I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make those goals happen before the end of my life.

My goals:

• Complete Cerulean Times - the first album of Spinscythe.
  
• Reboot and revamp Warz & Battlez - my first webcomic.
  
• Finish my novel.
  
• Excel Spinscythe and its various projects to the point of recognition and success.
  
• Complete the Johnny Shines Lyric Atheneum - This one isn't for me. It's for Johnny Shines. He's the bluesman who changed my life for the best and I want everyone to know about his existence. I want people to understand how I feel when I hear his blues. I doubt I can ever transfer that feeling to anyone else, but in the very least I can provide a free service where people can gain more insight on his art. In time, his art will just shine more and more. He may be gone from this world, but his art lives on forever and no one can take that away from him.
  
• Buy a house - I really, really want to own a house one day. I want my own space where I can thrive and work on art for the rest of my days. My music, my stories, my character design, my game ideas; this is all I want out of life. I just want the ability to work on these things, even if it brings me nothing but hardships. Without my passion, I don't see any value in my life.
  
• Finish my secret manga project - In the attic of my mind I have been developing concepts for an American-made manga I wish to produce.
  
• Create a cartoon - Humor is something I can't live without and I want to create the funniest cartoon ever imagined. I know this is going to be a tough one, but I want to do it.
  
• Create an anime - Probably based off of one of my webcomic ideas or my secret manga project.
  
• Beat Super Mario World on SNES.
  
• Collect the Johnny Shines discography.
  
• Produce more content for my various blogs, especially A Minney Post, and to be consistent with it.
  
• Travel to Ireland, Sweden, Britain, and Japan.
  
• Create my own philosophy and wisdom in book form.
  
• Write and produce a comedy film.
  
• Write and produce a fantasy/sci-fi film like no other. Break the tropes, cut the romance, destroy the Hollywoodization of story concepts.
  
• Make enough money so that I may live my life in peace.
  
• Provide for my family and friends so that they may have comfortable lives.
  
• Provide the greatest life I can for my dog and to always have a dog by my side for the rest of my days.
  
• Bring back my visual art projects, like my DeviantArt.
  
• Learn to paint. But also, learn to paint like Francisco Goya.

Resistance is an Ally

Forced forgiveness is just another form of dominance. Submitting to the people out of shame is a failure to oneself. To stand by your own word represents the spirit of humanity.

My nature leads me down a path of uncertainty. Without my nature, I don't exist.

Pondering

Life is complicated. I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking. How did my life end up this way? Is there something wrong with me, other people, or all of us?

What will it take for me to get to the point of feeling mutual comfort in myself and those around me? That's what it's all about, right? Mutual goals. Shared interests. Even though I am far above the mind of my dog, we have a shared interests. Survival, food, togetherness, and so on and so forth. 

Happiness isn't a desire anymore. Happiness is a myth. I can't be bothered with fables or riddles. What is my time going towards and what good will it bring me and others?

I need to sleep. I guess I will try, but I feel like my life is a movie and the credits are about to roll. There is no logical reason to feel this way, but it is how I feel. 

What is anything when one looks back on the experience? How much sense did any of it make? Am I just getting the cheaper version of everything in life, and when will fortune remember my efforts? What is waiting for me now?

Mystified by reality

Is life just two beings comparing themselves to each other and disagreeing?

Even if all the energy in the universe spawns from this tension, is it necessary?

What if black and white never existed?

Just some thoughts
to leave you pondering.