So I'll be 23 soon. And I care.. against that. Not really interested in being 23. Getting older isn't really good news to me. I guess the older I get, the more seriously people will take me. But life lasts only so long. and as I age, it seems my window of opportunity shrinks.
So how exactly am I supposed to take full advantage of being 23? What is it that 23-year-olds do that I can relate to? I don't know. I really don't. Everything seems so overrated. I feel that the people around me are actually lost in life. They go after things that seem to be unfulfillable or end up confused and diminished. They tell me I should do this or that... why? I've done things in my past that the others around me have done and not be satisfied. I don't find certain things fun that others do, or desire things enough to have an excuse to be stupid. Even though I don't feel like I'm actually smart..
As for me, I feel that I am not lost. I feel like... I am just confused as to how to progress. I know what I want. I just don't know how to get there.
As an artist, things seem to go best when they happen by result of my nature. I've learned other people's opinions wont change any of this. They just get in the way sometimes and I tend to trip over them. I seem to progress on my own time better, so I hope to tune out these opinions. Writing that seemed so ignorant. But it's really not...
There is something about these retro video game songs, japanese rock, and anime music that just makes the world a better place for me. I think I'm almost fully there now - near the point of completely embracing my love for this music. They are my true roots. I have no shame. The only reason I would have shame for it would have to be me being afraid of what other people think. And I don't care now! Because I've come to understand people who judge my musical taste are opinionated and/or ignorant. They either have bad taste (my opinion), no taste, or are "laughers" (as I described in a previous blog) or... blanks. People who are blank, plain, brainwashed by society, uncreative, etc. There. Laughers and blanks will make fun of me. And just plain haters as well.
On top of the stories I've worked on that are collecting dust... I think I need to eventually write a book about some of the subjects I've discussed. Once all my opinions and info are collected, if I can develop a productive reason for writing a book, i will write one.
